Every time I hang out with her I always feel inspired, refreshed, as if God himself has met with me that day. I know that sounds like a lot and when she reads this, which I found out the other day she did, she will most likely not understand why I am writing this about her. Hence, the reason I am. 

I have been learning in the past few weeks to not take people for granted, to appreciate your time with them, to stop the superficiality in all relationships and start caring for others on a level that is in no way earthly. I have realized that I have a deep passion for youth programs. I want to help and strive for better. I want to see God glorified and God alone. I want to have relationships with friends that are Holy and Just. I want to be a friend that others know they can always come to no matter what. I want to be a wife to someone who is my best friend first and husband second. I want others to see God in me. I want to help inspire my children to be imitators of Christ and love others and be compassionate. I want my life to be a reflection of the Love I have been shown. I strive for that. I fail at that. I ask your help in keeping me accountable. 

In Santus Real's song "Whatever You're Doing" I have found a song that I feel completely resounds with me. It sums up how I feel in starting anew and letting God take full control of everything, the way it should have been from the start. It's a tough road and chaotic, yet Peaceful. Here's the song. It says,